TWELVE years ago, when I could face 
    High heaven’s dome with different eyes— 
In days full-flowered with hours of grace, 
    And nights not sad with sighs— 
I wrote a song in which I strove 
    To shadow forth thy strain of woe, 
Dark widowed sister of the grove!— 
    Twelve wasted years ago.
But youth was then too young to find 
    Those high authentic syllables, 
Whose voice is like the wintering wind 
    By sunless mountain fells; 
Nor had I sinned and suffered then 
    To that superlative degree 
That I would rather seek, than men, 
    Wild fellowship with thee!
 
But he who hears this autumn day 
    Thy more than deep autumnal rhyme, 
Is one whose hair was shot with grey 
    By Grief instead of Time. 
He has no need, like many a bard, 
    To sing imaginary pain, 
Because he bears, and finds it hard, 
    The punishment of Cain.
 
No more he sees the affluence 
    Which makes the heart of Nature glad; 
For he has lost the fine, first sense 
    Of Beauty that he had. 
The old delight God’s happy breeze 
    Was wont to give, to Grief has grown; 
And therefore, Niobe of trees, 
    His song is like thine own!
 
But I, who am that perished soul, 
    Have wasted so these powers of mine, 
That I can never write that whole, 
    Pure, perfect speech of thine. 
Some lord of words august, supreme, 
    The grave, grand melody demands; 
The dark translation of thy theme 
    I leave to other hands.
 
Yet here, where plovers nightly call 
    Across dim, melancholy leas— 
Where comes by whistling fen and fall 
    The moan of far-off seas— 
A grey, old Fancy often sits 
    
And fills thy strong, strange rhyme by fits 
    With awful utterings.
 
Then times there are when all the words 
    Are like the sentences of one 
Shut in by Fate from wind and birds 
    And light of stars and sun, 
No dazzling dryad, but a dark 
    Dream-haunted spirit doomed to be 
Imprisoned, crampt in bands of bark, 
    For all eternity.
 
Yea, like the speech of one aghast 
    At Immortality in chains, 
What time the lordly storm rides past 
    With flames and arrowy rains: 
Some wan Tithonus of the wood, 
    White with immeasurable years— 
An awful ghost in solitude 
    With moaning moors and meres.
 
And when high thunder smites the hill 
    And hunts the wild dog to his den, 
Thy cries, like maledictions, shrill 
    And shriek from glen to glen, 
As if a frightful memory whipped 
    Thy soul for some infernal crime 
That left it blasted, blind, and stript— 
    A dread to Death and Time!
 
But when the fair-haired August dies, 
    And flowers wax strong and beautiful, 
Thy songs are stately harmonies 
    By wood-lights green and cool— 
Most like the voice of one who shows 
    Through sufferings fierce, in fine relief, 
A noble patience and repose— 
    A dignity in grief.
 
But, ah! conceptions fade away, 
    And still the life that lives in thee— 
The soul of thy majestic lay— 
    Remains a mystery! 
And he must speak the speech divine— 
    The language of the high-throned lords— 
Who’d give that grand old theme of thine 
    Its sense in faultless words.
 
By hollow lands and sea-tracts harsh, 
    With ruin of the fourfold gale, 
Where sighs the sedge and sobs the marsh, 
    Still wail thy lonely wail; 
And, year by year, one step will break 
    The sleep of far hill-folded streams, 
And seek, if only for thy sake 
    Thy home of many dreams.
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